"The Night I decided to be back"

"The Night I decided to be back"

by:

Virgilio F. De leon Jr.MD

It has been awhile since I have written...well posted something in this blogpost. I have been writing a lot of things but something that I felt that is not worth posting at all. Or when I finally decide to post something I just decide not to. There are things that I wanted to put here even before the lock downs started but I felt like I was in that survival mode or at least in my mind it was just better to think of other things rather than to write.

I initially thought that without work and a lot of time to kill there would be tons of opportunities to write at home or at the duties I had left but there was simply something missing , a drive to do so. When I was at home I spent time with my family , talking , joking around , living the life that we have and being able to take care of them was enough. So for awhile I did not write at all.

And then there was the news of the virus that I did not want to look at but had no choice but to be updated. It was simply everywhere and once I had the chance to update myself daily there would be moments that I would isolate and not look at anything online. And there was my chance to post something. Gone.

So what was different tonight? I felt like the past few months have been a big burden on my soul and I have done a lot of work toward lifting it by writing once again. It simply feels wonderful to see the words jump from my mind and into this blank page.

And so I am back and I don't to go away for another extended period like this. Whatever may come.