"Crossing the Sea"

"Crossing the Sea"

by:

Virgilio F. De leon Jr.MD

V had always loved the rain. It always made him feel energized especially during those times that he had way too much on his mind. The rain was steadily pouring now over Seoul and V wondered what YuuA was doing. Was she in this downpour? Was she cuddled up in a blanket somewhere? Alone or with someone? 

V shuddered at the last thought but then thought better of it. He would be much sadder if she was alone during a cold night like this.

He did not really mind being outside like this. Most humans would not even want to be in this conditions. The dragon in him sought out the mighty typhoons on the Japanese sea and longed to play in the storm clouds once more. The human side of him wanted to just lie down , take this all in and not worry about tomorrow.

Looking at the clock on his bed and realizing that it was already 2am made V want to sleep even if he did not really need to. What he wanted was to see her again. He could muster enough energy to teleport beside her but then again he was afraid who he would find sleeping with her.

He had his own mistakes and surely he can forgive YuuA for anything that she wanted to do but there was a part of him that felt like it was dying every time he thought about it. YuuA is an adult capable of making her own decisions and if those decisions include being with someone else then he would just need to live with it.

Yes he thought sadly to himself. He would have to live with that. Putting YuuA through his mistakes was bad enough and he cannot tolerate her being a part of his machinations. He remembered the sadness in her eyes when he finally said goodbye. It did not mean that he was not keeping an eye on her. Red and Blue were always near her but in her private places they asked her to respect YuuA. The talons did as they were told despite some complaints from Blue regarding her safety and the ever present threat of her former clan.

V always worried but he could not face her now after all that he had done. All of the pain that he had given her. He can't even ask for forgiveness as he knew that he didn't deserver it. Not from her. 

I want to see her. I have to be strong. I have to...

In a crackle of blue energy V was gone.

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YuuA stretched on the bed like an uncoiling cat. Her plump lips were pale after she had washed off the last of her lipstick and make up. The idol that people worshipped was for all intents and purposes naked and human. She had wrapped the white fur robes of the hotel around as she stood. In the distance she saw the ligthning and thought about him. Was it raining where was now? Was he thinking about her? Was he eating something? And if so would he eat that with me?

YuuA laughed at her thoughts. She was thinking of V and food all at the same time. It was hard not to because in the past couple of months V seemed to always know when she was hungry and just seemed to appear out of nowhere with chicken or hot dogs or burgers. All the unhealthy things that her company forbade. V would bring them all and she would smile at him and they would talk for hours until the sun came up. 

The main dancer looked out at the ocean , she knew she was facing Seoul and in her heart she hoped that he could hear. I want you here. I feel alone.

YuuA laughed at that thought too. It was the same reason why V was keeping his distance from her in the first place. She had told him that she wanted to be alone. It was interesting to her how easily she could think about him now after that painful event. He never even said sorry or was it because he felt that he should not apologize for something that she pushed him into? Ahhhhh. This is so frustrating , YuuA screamed in her head. 

Annoyed and hungry YuuA picked up the phone for room service when she smelled something familiar coming from the balcony. Those spices , that oil. The smell was wafting in uninvited and YuuA involuntary shuddered. It was Ramyeon appearing out of nowhere which only meant one thing. It was him.

"Are you ok?" V asked as he parted the thick curtains."I am sorry. I can't stay away any longer. I felt like I was dying without you."

YuuA smiled in the dark room. "Give me the Ramyeon first and we'll talk."

V sat across YuuA as she noisily ate the Ramyeon , his long legs crossed and his face impassive. The noodles did not stand a chance against the main dancers appetite and he was handing her two more bowls when she finished. Probably 2 more after this and she might be craving for desert which also thought of. It was that 72% Dark Cocoa that she loved. It might keep her awake but it didnt stop her from eating it.

"I'm happy you came." 

"Not as happy as I am to be here." V almost told  YuuA of his earlier doubts but thought better of it. There was no need, She was alone and waiting for him.

"Were you watching our Japanese debut? It was hard work without you here. Jinyo kept trying to help me but I still can't talk to her." 

"At least she is trying to talk to you and you do need her help. She is the best Japanese speaker in the group after all."

"You don't expect me to just forget what you and her did right?"

"I don't deserve forgiveness."

YuuA pursed her lips in the dark. "You do actually."

"You and Jinyo was as much as my fault as your own. I just can'y stop picturing her with you and I was trying to answer my own question and still not understanding."

"It is a lot of process. Should I leave you? I feel a certain level of anger rising."

YuuA moved so fast that he did not detect her movement. She placed her hand on his face and kissed him. "Stay. Please."

"Ok." And V held her for awhile in the only couch of the room. YuuA said nothing but he felt the warm tears flowing from her. She sobbed a little but held on to him as well. It seemed like a short while when he heard her soft snoring. She was finally able to sleep. V had carried her to the queen sized bed that seemed to engulf her petite form. He covered her with the comforter and took a seat back at the couch. He would not leave her until she said so.